This is an interesting excercise. Writing b/c I have to… b/c I have promised to make my Self accountable to those who have given and invested their money and mostly… their ..YOUR …belief in me.Thank-you!
I had my first class last night for”Small Business Ventures”..All day I was nervous/excited with high expectations of what the next 3 months will entail…I haven’t been in a ‘classroom situation’ since college days.. 20 something years ago….)I have been beating, fighting,nursing a stupid cold but regardless…. when I finally found my classroom after wandering up and down the stairs and the myriad of hallways with big,wide eyes trying to find my classroom where I was anticipating LikeMinds.. I still managed to arrive 15 min early.. so I took notes.observing …..before the professor walked in and introduced himself..People sauntered in..and out of roughly 25 people..the majority were males..Was I surprised? no. Just disappointed.
I was also disappointed to discover that I was in a class that a good fraction of students were only there b/c they were looking for grades as part as their overall program curriculum.
.Did I sign up for the wrong program?
NO. ..I like my prof very much. From the top.. I asked him about HIS credentials and how he arrived here thus far in Life.
He is a humble,honest being.. a captivating storyteller and has “lived’ a colorful human existence/career…..he is an entrepreneurial spirit that is sharing and giving..giving back of his knowledge,expertise and experience in the commercial, corporate world as he knows it..and I know he is going to be an ally in my PoLLY PoE! vision:)
He asked me at the end of the night..”Did I pass the Audition?”
I responded….yes ..indeed:)
For the most part.. going about life ..I feel young and ageless..but being in a class where I know I am the oldest in earth years.(the others have no idea) I feel I have so much more experience that cannot be put on paper..I’m at a loss for relating to those who are in their 20’s and think they know how the world works.. I get it. I understand. I’ve been there…I bought a t-shirt..and sold it…..and yet…I am unable to relate to them.. My intense,curious listening and fearless questions as I look into their eyes…. makes them uncomfortable.
i don’t know how to not make them feel uncomfortable.
I know why I am here. Why I am taking this class…
when someone(no names mentioned) says to me they are here b/c they have to be…for marks etc.. I know they are not the kinda people I want to play hard with.. cuz’ all I want to do is PLAY and Play is 24/7 work. and I love to Play.
PLAY=PAY in my world.
On the positive side of it all.. I am terrified.. I like that. I am going to grow more than I ever thought possible.. I have never been about numbers,math, logistics, facts,research to prove what I know.. and yet. here it is.. I’ve always lived by instinct.. now, this class is going to give me the skills to back up my instincts:)
I remember being in elementary school and doing tests and failing them.. (math to be specific) I knew the answer.. just knew… but couldn’t show HOW I knew..
(Did ya know? I admit..I failed gr.3 math and failed accounting in gr.10.
SO WHAT!…. It’s very frustrating telling someone who doesn’t understand that mode of being.. I just know!.
First and foremost,I am an Actor/Student of Life
.. I trust my Self…I KNOW my Self..so now…. trying to apply THAT to THOSE who only relate to numbers and research as proof for success ..I will be challenged..
I was also disappointed b/c I thought I was going to be in a pool of creative,social do-gooders, so to speak..people who wanted to cause some good shit…instead, I think I’m in a class of people who are only about making money…not thinking about their impact on the future..what they have to say.what they STAND for…. again..is where i feel the difference in age/maturity.
so… what to do?
The Prof wants us to get into groups.. to come up with a business idea/plan..
but it’s not my thing.it’s not why I am taking this class.I came with an idea/passion.
It’s not for grades.or a hypothetical idea..
I’m here in this class to make IT happen.
I’m here to learn how to make my ideas a money making reality while causing some good shit..errr trouble… ..
ok. that was my first class..
I’m looking forward to homework.
Afterall.. I am and always will be A Student of Life.